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As anybody who knows me can tell, I love video games.  I have not been able to finish anything colored this month, due to a bunch of stuff coming out all at once, see?

With Minecraft WiiU Edition, Mighty No. 9, and Tokyo Mirage Sessions #FE out now, my Wii U is very busy.  Not to mention between Splatfests (Go team Nightowl!), trying to keep up with online stuff, and forcefeeding cheeseburgers to Nokos as I beat them senseless in hopes they will be my friend, I really have not had the time to properly ink or color anything lately.  Sorry.

I hope I will have this all out of my system in time to have something up around July, but I cannot make any promises right now.

Anyway, back to trying to beat Pyrogen without dying ten times in a row.

Okay, a while back I stopped doing art trades, and one of the key factors was the person I was doing a trade with at the time backed out after I already posted my half of the trade, and completely left DA for a time.

Recently that same person contacted me about doing ANOTHER trade, even though they still owed me the half of the previous trade.  I refused to start another art trade until they finished their half of the previous one.  And this was not a case of "Oh sure, I have it right here, I just forgot to post it"; I had to point this out a few times before it was done.  I do not believe they even started to draw the picture until after I put my foot down on this.

This is NOT how an art trade is supposed to go; yes they did finally make a picture that I asked for, but it has been over a year and a half since I originally made and posted my half of the trade.  Should I really trust someone who only seems interested in making me draw a picture for them, but avoiding doing anything in return?

In summary, if I ever do art trades again, these are the new rules for it:
1.) I can choose to withhold my end of the trade until the other person's half of the trade is ready.
2.) If the other party backs out of the trade, for whatever reason, I reserve the right to refuse any other trades or requests from them in the future.
3.) Until the other party meets their end of the trade, at least proving that they have started to honestly work on their picture for it, I do not have to post anything beyond a pencil blocking for my half.

I am sorry if this seems like I have trust issues with everyone now, but there are valid reasons for this.

Lately I have been obsessing over what other people asked me to do so much, that I think I have forgotten how to do stuff that _I_ want to do.  When I posted up some sketches a little while back, it was because I had yet to complete anything worth posting just yet.  That catgirl sketch fav.me/d65go95 also did not turn out as well as I wanted it too, and I realized that previously I would have gone back & redone it before posting anything up, but I really did not have the energy to do so this time around.  Why?  Because these days whenever I get something scanned, I end up mentally doing through this perpetual loop of "OH, but before I do this, there was that other thing some guy requested...", and I loose my motivation to do any work, because I feel I cannot work on the stuff that I want to do.

Not helping things any is that a lot of these requests come from people who have already asked three or four other artists to draw the exact same thing for them, leaving me feeling as if I am not doing anything special.  AND when I do not do everything for them before other people get their versions out, I get messages in my inbox asking what is taking me so long.  I am not a fast artist; I am lucky if I get something out at least once a month.  Sorry, that is just the way that I am.

I kind of feel like I have lost my muse, fussing over this.  I want to draw things that interest ME.  That is why I do not draw boys, or non-popping versions of my previous pictures; I do not have any interest in doing those pictures, ever.



So what is the point?  Well until further notice, I am not doing anymore requests/birthday pics/or anything else that is sent to me, just because somebody asked.  I am not doing commissions either, and anybody who presses the issue, I will just simply ignore.  I want to get back to doing things that I want to draw, before I start doing things other people want me to draw.

That is the bottom line, and sorry if this upsets anyone.  Goodnight.